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Jan 3, 2009

2. Just Some Innocent Pornography

The Day That Changed My Life.
I remember the day that changed my life... Ben had taken the kids to the baseball field. He was being great. I would catch up later. But I sat down on his computer before it would log out from time. I searched around like I usually did. Looking for “something.”

Something to have "one over" on Ben. Something to make me feel power. I was looking for control. I was looking for reasons he was so distant and so aloof and so unable to love me. But mostly I just wanted to have some power back in my life.

If I found trash on him, I would have that power. I had searched many times, but I really never found much. I had noticed that the family computers had had pornography sites on them lately but I had assumed it was our kids. I had even shown them to Ben. He walked out of the room and said he didn’t want to look at that stuff. Never for a second did I think that Ben was the one that had actually been on those sites.

 He was a “good guy.” His sexual appetite pretty minimal, and he was married with a wife willing to have sex any time he wanted. Why would he need to check out those sites? Funny thing was, if he had told me it was him, I would have gotten a kick out of it. I would have laughed. It seemed harmless from him. Heck he was a grown man. He wasn’t going to be influenced by the bad messages Internet porn sends to boys about what sex is. He was above it all. It wouldn’t have bothered me to find out he was dabbling in Internet pornography.

 I came across his user name “Noah‘s Ark“” on some newspaper website. I put it into a google search and my hell began.

Wait...the hell didn’t begin yet. Actually I was happy that I had something on him. It has happiness at first. It really was. Oh I was going to put this in his face and make him grovel. It was my chance to have some power back. He had taken every ounce of power I felt, and now this was my chance to get it back.

I found that he had talked to prostitutes by email and I knew he had set up appointments. But I knew Ben. He was a coward. He would just do that as a turn on. He would never really follow through. And so my new life began.

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